A State Of Confusion
I was asked if I get offended when no one leaves comments on my posts, quick to answer, no, and not having any time to explain myself. It’s been on mind since.
I didn’t start this blog to be a professional writer or to see how many hits I can get in one day or how many comments people leave. I never even intended for people to see it. I was told by a professional I should keep a journal, that it would help to clear the demons that cloud my mind on a daily basis.
See, my mind doesn’t work in the same manner as most others. The thoughts form a barricade and become very overwhelming for me. My words become confused and slow to develop. They run through my head like a freight train and it’s hard for me to catch them. My brain becomes paralyzed and my mental state shuts down, so to speak. It’s hard for me to handle. I then become silent.
Most people don’t understand, some try to relate, but they don’t, not really. I stand apart from other people. I hide my feelings very well but if you know me, you can see it. There is nothing I can do but wait until it clears, hence, I started a blog…..
Keeping a paper journal was difficult for me, the written words were far and few between. A friend of mine and coworker at the time, introduce me to the world of blogging. I was explaining to her my dilemma when she told me that she uses her blog for the same reason. Although it took me several weeks to set it up, I was grateful when I did. I still have difficulty gathering my thoughts together and getting them out into words but it does help to clear the clouded space of confusion. I didn’t give my address to anyone, but Sissy searched and somehow found it. One thing led to another and my blog was shared with everyone.
I’m glad my thoughts are out there for other people to see. My friends and E-friends are welcomed with open arms at anytime and if there is no comments so be it, I have way more things to worry about.