Life As I See It

…And On A Serious Note

Management is doing things right; leadership is doing the right things.

Peter F. Drucker 

I’m not the career oriented person like most people are.  Why?  Well, because I don’t like rules, I don’t like insensitive people and I need lots of flexibility.  I’ve left many jobs because of this.  I can’t work in an environment that makes me unhappy and people don’t give a fuck about my feelings.   

I found the perfect job seven years ago, teaching four year old children.  I found the niche I was looking for.  Not only did I have the flexibility I needed but I could express myself in the only way I knew how and I was respected for that.  I was good at what I did, I enjoyed it and I made a difference.   I found a boss that cared about my feelings and went out of her way to make me feel good about myself.  I could bend most rules without being noticed.  Things were great.

Two years ago we got a new director.  Not a problem.  Change is good, right?  It is if the change is for the better.  Changes were made, some good and some not so good.  There were problems and people weren’t happy but I’m not the type of person to sit back and let my feelings get the best of me.  I’m outspoken and I need to be heard.  So I marched my ass into the office and we worked out our differences.    She made me feel good and gave me exactly what I needed.  Things couldn’t of been better. 

I started my school year in September thinking that I was on top.  That she was on my side, that she gave me exactly what I wanted.  By November, I realized that wasn’t the case.  Things only got worse and I grew very unhappy.  My feelings were no longer considered and the changes just didn’t suit my needs.  I’ve decided to quit, in the middle of the school year.  I gave them enough notice to find someone at their own pace.  It didn’t take long and before I knew my last day of work would be February 29th. 

Time grew closer and it was a lot harder then I thought it was going to be.  Not only was she my boss but she was one of my parents and the betrayal she felt showed towards me as a person.  The mixed feelings I had of being happy and sad were very confusing.  I know I made the right decision but did I do in the right manner?  Should I have finished out the school year?  Should I have considered other peoples feelings before mine? 


6 responses

  1. Heather

    No, honey. Let me tell you something. Teachers have enough issues without being not supported by their leadership. Like invisible pay, buying their supplies out of pocket, etc. There are plenty of places who need people who do what you do, and you’ll find a good fit again. The kids will be sad and that’s probably why the parents get upset, but would they rather you show up bitter every day? No. Little Precious will get over it. It’s another life lesson she has to learn anyway: “Sometimes, uh, shit changes. And here’s a secret: in 10 years, you won’t remember this whole year anyway!”

    March 2, 2008 at 10:00 am

  2. Heather

    I’d have just shown up and taught the kids how to gamble. They should count their blessings.

    March 2, 2008 at 10:02 am

  3. Thanks, Heather, I can always count on you to understand everything and put it in different words so it makes a little more sense to me.

    March 2, 2008 at 10:41 am

  4. The director should have known that you would be on your way out. Well before you knew. You can only treat people like shit for so long, ya know. That’s why, when I am shitty to someone, I expect them to not be around, to vacate, fuck off, etc….
    Heather, I would have taught them how to run a casino and launder money. I’m glad I’m not a teacher.

    March 3, 2008 at 12:44 pm

  5. Heather

    Yeah. The educational system doesn’t realize how good they actually have it. We’re doing you a favor, school boards of America! Now pay these teachers or we’re coming in with blackjack tables! You, special needs kids: you’re counting cards!

    March 3, 2008 at 1:46 pm

  6. When we played bingo, we told them they needed to pay attention because when they were old they would be playing for money and they didn’t want to lose out on money.

    March 3, 2008 at 2:03 pm

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