Lost In Space And Time
I can’t seem to get my thoughts together these days. I’ve started five posts the last three weeks and went back to them several times before my fingers could type even the smallest sentence. The thoughts are there… and my brain is moving faster than ever, churning anxiously to tell my stories. It doesn’t matter if I’m driving my car, doing laundry or watching TV, I’m constantly trying to put my thoughts together and just when I think I’m ready, I sit and stare at a blank screen with nothing to say.
It’s not my fault. Sometimes my words come easy but most days they don’t. It’s frustrating, living in a world of my own not being able to express myself the way most people do. I can. It’s just a little harder for me.
Think of it as a filing cabinet, taking in information, storing it and then retrieving it. Only, my recovery system doesn’t work the same way that others do. It’s like scrambling through your purse for five minutes, trying to find your ringing cell phone, you know it’s there but damn it you just can’t find it.
And when you do find it, you’ve missed the call.